*~Smile~*

Selfishly she tries to hold on to each moment---
Each moment in which she can laugh effortlessly.
If she continues to smile through hours of silence
Then that one dream can also dissolve gradually.

I wish there was a way for me to help her
But she misunderstands and twists what I say.
She hides behind that cheerful exterior...
"I am happy," she tells herself everyday.

She has accepted her inability to win
This battle between the heart and mind.
Everything she does ends up being for him---
In spite of herself she can't leave it behind.

Are people like her...rare in this time and place?
Most people can't see through that smile on her face.

♫~Elaine~♫

*~A Song~*

There's a song drifting through my window
And I waver between dream and reality.
Would anyone care to hear my solo
Accompanied by a make-believe symphony?

We can never experience total darkness
Yet we sometimes forget the smallest light.
It is not possible for me to be emotionless
But my heart no longer feels like taking flight.

No one can escape without telling a lie---
I try to rationalize what I do for that person.
I waver between really saying good-bye
And following the path to my self-destruction.

Through the window a song reaches my ears---
The same haunting tune follows me through the years.

♫~Elaine~♫