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*~To Blame You~*

I fell down today ---
Literally. Not figuratively.
It's so easy to put the blame on you.

Bleeding like this is okay.
These cuts don't hurt so badly.
The stinging helps take my mind off you.

I'm waiting for this blood to clot.
Real pain hurts less than I thought.

The skin will heal one day,
Unlike the hole you'll leave in me.
Cleaning a wound is a painful thing to do.

No bones were broken today.
It's my own fault for treading carelessly.
I wish it really was easy to always blame you.

I'll pretend that my foot didn't get caught
Because I was thinking of you as I walked.

♫~Elaine~♫

The structure of this one's a little different~ 8th day ~ ...

*~I.M.U.~*

Knowing nothing about how you feel
All I can do is go on like always.
Maybe you'll eventually change your mind.

I will miss you as long as I can't heal.

More than anyone else before you
I think it's you I'll remember always
So even if you choose to stay behind
Someone here will still care about you.

Yes, I know you've only been gone a few days.
Only a dumb girl gets confused with what's real.
Unlikely to change, I won't leave you behind.

Barely able to stand by my lie
All the others are hiding their pity.
Knowing nothing about how you feel,
All I can do is go on like always.

♫~Elaine~♫

*~1000 Faces~*

From her balcony she could see them all:
One thousand choices gathered before her,
But none of them had the power to make her fall
Because she did not wish to do so any longer.

There were those who pitied their Princess
Who insisted sincerely that all was well.
There were those who believed she was hopeless
But in the end no one could really tell.

Within the crowd of one thousand faces,
She won't look too closely in case he is there.
She would remember how her heart races
If she saw him again ~a dream so rare.

Five days go by as she forces herself to see without seeing.
She reassures her people that a good change is happening.

♫~Elaine~♫

*~No One~*

I'm beginning to see a light in this tunnel.
It makes no sense to keep digging deeper.
It's as if I was seeing you through a funnel.
Other than you, everyone else was a blur.

There is only so much a heart can take
Before it shuts down and stops feeling.
It is at this point that the brain will wake
And the ice inside will start reforming.

I believe I've found a favorable solution
That will revive my common sense:
Whenever you're near there's always confusion,
So I'll try harder to keep my distance.

No one should be more important to me than me.
I've been neglecting myself for you stupidly.

♫~Elaine~♫

*~Even Starlight Fades Eventually~*

Even starlight fades eventually
As the energy is lost to space.
Even if I wish to wait for you eternally
One day you will be replaced.

What is the difference between three days, three light years?
There is no immediate need to make this pain disappear.

Even a stone will melt eventually
When enough force is applied.
I still pray your heart will change for me
But I'll patiently take it all in stride.

The life of a star: is it too short or too long?
Will you and I be able to forget that one song?

Even the oceans will dry up eventually.
In this world changes are inevitable.
Even my tears won't be able to fall endlessly.
Soon I'll realize my stupidity is laughable.

Do you think I'm capable of outliving the star?
When you look, you'll still see my light from afar.

♫~Elaine~♫

*~The Dreamer~*

I tend to be the dreamer
Always hoping for love to find her.
I try to become stronger
Only to find myself falling faster.

My life is not bad, in reality
But i make myself suffer subconsciously.
Why do I always fall so completely?
How is it possible, I still dream wistfully?

I have to pretend I'm happy this way
So that you can still be here, so that you'll stay.
My heart holds on to each word you say.
Because of you I end up thinking too much every day.

I can't stop being the dreamer who falls in too deeply.
I'm sorry I still dream you'll be the one who'll save me.

♫~Elaine~♫   

*~My Problem~*

I can blame you all I want
But deep down I know it's my own problem.
I let myself down by letting you in.
My head couldn't hold on to logic and reason.

From now until whenever
I know you'll be important in my eyes
But you won't hear these words
I choose to try so hard to shut up inside.

It may seem sad to think about
How little you know and how you don't seem to care
But the saddest thing of all
Is I'm letting myself feel something you don't share.

While you're away this can be my test.
How long can my heart survive without hearing from you?
I'll try my best to keep everything hidden
But these words will still form when there's nothing to do.

It's my problem - I should keep it inside and hold on to it selfishly.
Even if you knew, nothing would change between you and me.

♫~Elaine~♫

*~Does it Really Matter?~*

How many days have gone by since his departure?
It does not matter how often she checks the calendar.
She wonders what she did to deserve every thorn---
Each dream draws near only to be torn.

With only herself to blame she keeps on waiting ---
If only she created a stronger fortress in the beginning
No one should have been able to unbind her.
No one should have ever been able to move her.

How many days before he'll return once more?
The days still continue unchanged as before.
In her cold stone chamber she remains unmoved
As her knight's existence goes on unproved.

She is forced subconsciously to think of him only.
Every few minutes his image crosses her mind briefly.
Allowing her mind to wander near his dream,
She stabs her own wounds from within.

How many days since their words were exchanged?
Does it really matter if his heart cannot be changed?

♫~Elaine~♫

now I should be able to study haha... -_-'

*~Waiting for the Rain~*

A figure is seated over there in the distance.
She seems to be waiting for something.
She sits there for hours with the same expression...
Her face...Would you call it smiling?

The wind whips her hair out of place
But she keeps staring ahead.
I see the same frozen smile on her face
As her eyes slowly turn red.

I run to her as dark clouds are coming
But the rain is what she's waiting for.
When tears from the sky begin descending
She won't have to hide hers anymore.

Two figures are seated, veiled by rain water.
I watch droplets fall from her eyes and shatter.

♫~Elaine~♫

*~Unable~*

Unable to change the expression on her face
On days spent by herself
She struggles to keep her smile in place
Just in case he is looking her way.

She tries to become someone who he'll chase.
Unable to find another way
She will keep waiting, just in case,
Her patience proves worthwhile.

She appreciates the empty space
He'll surely leave someday.
She won't be able to forget his face
Even long after she must leave.

Because his presence is something special,
For the time being she'll choose to be hopeful.

♫~Elaine~♫


Don't worry~ it's just a poem ^_^ Everything is ok now
Soon exams will be over and I can paint again~
I can immerse myself in novels again~
I can focus on my beloved language studies again~
I can resurrect my Yamapi dream again~
I can watch dramas again~
Everyone deserves to be happy ^_^ Everyone should be happy~
Smiling takes less energy than frowning~

so...in the words of Josh Groban (and Charlie Chapman)....

♫ ~Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking~
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by.

If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile. ~♫

^_^

*~I'm not Smart~*

I only wish that my meaningless messages
Can make you laugh -or at least smile.
I send you words on a one-way express
Not expecting to receive any reply.

I'm still waiting for the day I realize
How stupid I'm being right now.
One day I'll stop thinking only of you
But I haven't yet figured out how.

The time spent together with you
Passes by so quickly each day.
I'm satisfied to keep on waiting
For the off-chance you'll ask me to stay.

I know I don't hold the same place in your heart
But I can't not like you, I'm not that smart.

♫~Elaine~♫

心が痛い

でも

泣けられない。

I should watch Bambi. heh.

你知道我在等你們分手嗎

我很關心你跟她　相處得稱心嗎
沒任何衝突嗎　不過　不過　想補充一句
(我哋開頭都係咁架喇)

如果她有福氣　未妒忌　別妒忌
讓我暫時地祝賀你
等你　分離　隨時準備
誰人來殘酷報喜

＊知你無本心　有日到她死心
我未會灰心　不怕受過的教訓
願意在呆等　不忠愛人
回頭負你責任　知你
曾花心　愛著你很驚心　卻又覺開心
得我願意受你苦困
我為何肯　等個舊人

誰叫我　不甘心　等到怕了都等

等等等還等　忍忍忍仍忍

我很清楚你的家　她可知那梳化
是共誰選擇嗎　可笑　可怕　只敢想一下
(可能你會返嚟呢)

如她給你拋棄　別顧忌　別顧忌
尚有笨人在等待你
等你　分離　又再一起
猶如輪班去就你

REPEAT＊

還錯過　多少的　親吻
內疚地　耐心地　靜盼愛反悔的你
你似是和她　朝晚未離
我也有信心等你

等你　尋開心　最後變出傷心　我便會開心
可以又再被你幽禁
我為何肯　等個舊人
誰叫我　不甘心　等你老了都等

即使終於與她　成親

Long Distance

When I'm feeling blue
Lost without a clue
Sparks between our eyes
Nothing can be as true

Sing my life for you
Paintings that I drew
One plus one makes two
How I wish to caress you

Tell me where we heading to
What we do may seem so crude
Where's the "good" in our goodbyes
The time you leave is the time
You break my heart in two

[Chorus:]
Even though we're far apart
Send my love with all my heart
When you miss me at night
Look at the stars shining bright
For the times you pushed me through
All the things I do for you
Running tears from my eyes
Thinking how will I survive
Next goodbye

(Repeat from top)

(Chorus x2)

Oooooooooh
Goodbye...


比我想像中愛你

還以為我們 已早告吹
儘管巧遇 起碼 敢面對
誰料一眼 光影開始倒退 變得心虛
是我沒有用 我的眼中
熟悉俊臉 可親到 很沉痛
誰願相信 早鬆手的擁抱 原來從未放鬆

別怕 你舊日再好 到今天還有甚麼好
還是我愛你愛到想不到的 幅度
在你手得到放生 還太早
但怕 你就是最好
我會鄙視我 難醫好
寧願你變化到擦身都不可 認到
別妄想跟你有天 再共舞

別怕 你舊日再好 到今天還有甚麼好
還是我愛你愛到想不到的 幅度
在你手得到放生 還太早
但怕 你就是最好
我會鄙視我 難醫好
寧願你變化到擦身都不可 認到
若你張開了兩手 也別抱

心要幾灰 至做到

~That's all for now. Back to studying. Next time I'll post...Hins lyrics ^_^ ; I'm not emo. : P