Hey so here are some poems I've written this month that I didn't feel like posting before but I'm ok now so I can post them haha

(untitled 1)
Sometimes while I watch the stars disappear
I wonder what wrong I've done in previous lives.
In a time long forgotten, reliving the same fears
I was destined to be born again and shed the same tears.

When was it decided that I should suffer?
What did I do to turn the gods against me?
Why must I be the one to walk alone through the thunder?
Where will I find a sign or an answer?

Each time a piece of my heart is taken from me
I become more fond of my own seclusion.
When was I separated from my love for eternity?
How can I liberate myself from this cruelty?

* ok i realized that one was really melodramatic now that I read it again >_< maybe I don't have a love right now but that doesn't mean we've been separated for an eternity....but I was in that state of mind while I was writing the poem so yea >_< *

(untitled 2)
Sometimes hearing words of thanks
Hurts oneself the greateset.
Choosing to sacrifice yourself
Means being hurt the deepest.

When circumstances lead down the road
To a new dimension of emptiness
She was willing to walk on alone
Knowing she'd give others happiness.

The hardest words she'd ever written
Hides all her human frailty.
A poem she composes in solitude
Will remain within for eternity.

* I realize I use a lot of the same words...gotta expand my vocabulary >_<

(untitled 3)
She wonders at the immensity of the universe,
And the profound loneliness she feels
When she realizes how distant two bodies are.

If she could travel to the darkest dust cloud
And experience the deepest cold and isolation
Perhaps she could learn to heal all her scars.

What would it feel like to be the only one
Floating in the emptiness of space
Far from the warmth and light of any star?

It is this song she chooses to sing
Though she can hardly take a breath.
She will learn to endure the sting.
She brings her secret to her death.

(untitled 4)
maybe I was wrong to wish such a wish.
Maybe I've made the road longer.
Is it possible for a person to be too unselfish?

Maybe I was better off with an abundance of tears.
Maybe enduring it alone doesn't make me stronger.
Is it possible for me to contain all the fears?

Slowly I've started to become something else.
The pain lays dormant below the surface.
What happens to a person unable to cry,
Who can't truly smile, stuck with a grimace?

maybe I shouldn't have wished for this.
Maybe there are worse things than crying too much.
Maybe once in a while I need to be selfish. 

(untitled 5)
Sometimes people give up on miracles
When they should keep believing.
Their whole mentality is rearranged
And there are no more tears worth crying.

Observers can express their condolences
But in her mind nothing is changing.
She does not make a single wish
For the one who she knows is dying.

She doesn't want more unanswered prayers
And miracles are no longer worth believing.
To see all she loves in blacks and greys
She is powerless as everything is changing.

Sometimes people don't believe anymore.
The truth is there and it's no use denying.
Sometimes people need to suffer alone
And never show the pain that they're hiding.

*ok the next one is happier ^_^ but it's short and I wrote it today...not really done yet but can't think of anything else to write so HERE:

(untitled 6)
Although you no longer remember me
Just being able to walk beside you
Can bring a smile back to my face.

Once in a while if I can feel you are near
I don't need to know whether you feel it too
And all I need is your memory to stay.

********** That's all for now ^_^

hey hey I wrote this last night...don't know how coherent it is haha :p


~~So there ya go ^^ once again it's really late at night and I'm quite tired...that's when I write most...haha Sorry if this is another depressing poem... it's just in my nature to bring out the tragedy :p

♫~~Elaine~~♫

ALSO, it's really late and I'm really tired so some of the lines might not make sense...and I'm also not sure I like the rhyming pattern...doesn't work very well...