Hey y'all, these are just poems I've written recently....many of them were written very very late at night after i've been frustrated and exhausted from homework haha so as a result, some of the poems are really bitter and depressing....and some are the complete opposite....>_< enjoy! and comment :D

Darkness Radiates...
An obscure place full of light...
That is the house of hope.
I've lost sight of the path
So I don't know how to return.
A sanctuary within the despair...
Here, there is still hope.
But I have been banished
As the wheels of fortune turn.
Forces oppose every step I take,
I live with a frozen soul.
Forced to wait until it breaks
Or until fortunes turn once more...
Until I can feel the warmth of the light
Hope struggles to exist.
Until I find a reason for me
To try again...to return to that light...

(I don't know if I already posted this next one....but here it is...)
untitiled for now....
The skies cease to be blue
The moment they sense you.
The silvery white clouds drift by.
A frozen tear drops from their eyes.
The stars lose their sparkle tonight.
Like an eclipse, you block out the light.
I'm amazed by the distance
You flew so far in an instant.
Your once loving arms release me.
My body is the only thing free.
Heart and mind won't follow,
Leaving my life so hollow.

also untitled...
My mind can be a blank canvas,
I can start anew
As long as you don't come back
And paint over it with blue.
You left me so overwhelmed
With two many shades and hues.
You used my favourite colours against me.
No more brightness shines through.

and not titled either...
You walked away so fast.
Would you have stopped if you saw me?
How many times have we passed
Without seeing each other?
I saw you glance my way.
Too bad I couldn't stop for you.
I used to wait everyday
While you kept on without me.

Night Music (temporary title...)
Close your eyes and listen to night's music.
Pretend the trees are singing just for you.
Can you feel the nostalgia taking over?
The cool breeze plays a melody too.
You don't need to know the answers.
No one can know everything
And even if they did know more
They may forget the simple things.
Don't try to grow up too fast.
We slowly forget how to listen.
Take your time and hear harmonies.
Feel the magic. Just try and listen.
Frogs sing a syncopated waltz.
Wind chimes join the chorus of trees.
Once in a while I hear a cricket.
This is the most wonderful of symphonies
Long after I fall asleep
I'll remember my lullaby
The melody steps and leaps
You'll hear it too if you try.

another untitled one...
You can call me your friend
But I don't think I can say the same.
I stopped wishing long ago
But in my heart you've been ingrained.
I see the same face
I thought I erased
And it breaks my defenses again.
There's no place to hide.
You've got my hands tied.
Why is she more than a friend?
You can call me your friend
I'm the girl with a mechanical smile.
A shell that contains only pain
Can never again show a true smile.
And at a constant pace
I'm losing the race
As I drift farther away from you.
There's no place to hide
I'm leaving with the tide
And to you she's more than a friend.

short and untitled..
You don't need to find a reason
Just to talk to me.
I'm always here, always waiting
But I fall asleep
by the phone
Which refuses to ring.
Still alone
Still lacking something.
If you don't think of a reason
Soon I'm going to leave.

short untitled ones separated with a space between each...
Just as I finally reached your heart
Our time was over and we drifted apart.
You gave me something more
And my mind made a detour
Just to stay by your side a little longer.

Is it different this time?
I really hope so.
There'
s been too many lost chances.
Am I different this time?
I really hope so.
I've been too naive in the past.

How are you still alive in my head
When I already destroyed your memory?
You're like an endless virus to me.
I hear the echoes of all you said.
So when are you going to let me live
Without feeling like I want you to care?
I hate thinking how you're never here.
And it's worse because I know who you're with.

Feel free to smile with me
If you have nothing else to do.
Feel free to walk with me
If it's darkness you need to walk through.

Unreal (again, temporary title)
Walking through the empty night
Staring at a dying star
Sometimes I travel very far....
However far I go, it's not enough
I will always live with my scars.
You said what we had wasn't real love
So I hope you don't mind if I fade away.
Please don't try to find me now that I'm gone.
I know you'll cherish our memories.
I don't understand what we did wrong
But promise to smile and think of me.
You used to wonder why I went off alone.
I can tell you now as I won't see you again.
It's because I knew the one you loved
And i knew you didn't love the one who loved you.
Maybe one day when we're far enough
You'll be holding me closest to your heart.
But for now I want the one I love
To love the one he loves....
Perhaps one day you'll see
That you've really missed me.
When that day arrives,
Where will I be?

can't think of a title...
It rained on the first day of summer.
It could mean nothing
Or it could mean the world.
In the distance the sweet sound of thunder...
We can hide from the light
Or we can be amazed by the sight.
Late nights I stayed up and wandered...
I could follow the pathway
Or I could stray from safety.
I don't have to choose yet
There's no rush at all.
Maybe I'll leave my safety net
If you promise to catch my fall.

Smiles (very temporary title)
There's no one in sight for miles.
Just me all alone staring up at the sky
And oh, this feeling fills me with smiles.
The world belongs to me for awhile,
And I can reach the clouds if I try.
Stress-less for now
Just for a minute
Wish I could somehow
Keep this feeling forever.
But it's so hard
When the trouble takes over
Gotta keep guard
Can't give in to weakness.
There's no one around for miles.
I can be selfish and claim this special place.
Life is filled with so many trials.
If I always want to keep my smile
I need somewhere I can breathe and be me.

slightly humorous but still depressing short poem >_<
I don't mind being here.
My thoughts can keep me amused.
It's not darkness I fear,
But you could've still given me a flashlight.

I've been alone for so long
Seems like I write the same kinds of songs
But there's not much I can do
I can't help being permanently blue...

untitled ....
I thought I knew what I wanted before
But now that you've helped me open the door
I'm not sure if everything's alright.
I don't wanna know if anything might...
Under the circumstances I was unclear
I didn't expect you to come so near.
Now I've weakened my sheltered soul
And I'm afraid it is still an empty hole.
Perhaps it's possible to forget these things.
I've gone unloved for too long, don't you think?
That might explain why this doesn't feel right.
I want to be loved but I'm still not alright.

untitlted...
This is a funny position to be in.
I have to rethink what I thought I wanted.
Feels like someone skipped a stone into me
And the calmness in my heart has ended.
I'm not suited for such strong emotions.
The stab from before will be reopened.
All the happiness I've found since then,
Could so easily get lost and stolen.

untitled...
I've written another poem for your empty heart.
Just wanted to try and break through.
The first step to healing is coming out from the dark.
Thought you'd like to know I'd be here for you.
I hope soon your heart won't be so empty.
Maybe my words can fill some of the space.
It doesn't work to guard our hearts too safely.
What if it forever vanishes with no trace?

untitled...encouragement though!
My voice is too small
But sometimes less is more.
Don't turn from us all
I've felt what you felt before.
You can't hear me call
Until you unlock the door
Your heart wants to know
Why I won't let this go.

this one really shows off the "nun" influence in me? haha
Sheltered all my life
From what lies behind these walls.
My freedom was the tithe
Imprisoning me in these halls.
Now given the choice
My decision should come easily
But from within there's a voice
Warning me apprehensively.
A heart shaped dagger was placed beside me.
An uncertain future you promised me sadly.
"Lest my heart wanders," you started to say,
"And I make you cry, I swear I'll pay
With this, I'll make my wound much deeper."
You reached for the weapon but I said in a whisper,
"Go now. We can never be together to stay.
You must understand I am bound here for life.
I don't need the words you swear by this knife."

another night inspired one...
Listen to the raindrops
In the darkness of night.
Listen to the calmness
When there's no one in sight.
Hear echoes of tomorrow
As sleep claims your soul.
Hear your worries bid farewell
Hear the melody ring
And keep you from the cold.
In the time between two days,
Both too early and too late,
Thoughts drift around an empty heart
Still waiting to learn its fate.
Listen while you drift away
While the gentle rain still falls.
Listen as love tries to break through.
Listen, someone sings
To you beneath the walls.

Watching Paint Dry
Nothing better than watching paint dry with you.
There's nothing else I'd rather do.
We sit in the park watching grass grow
You make everything bearable, you know.
We can spend all day staring blankly at each other.
There's no one who knows me better.
We watch the sun rise and set from the mountain
Your arms and jacket shelter me from the wind.
You never mind watching me as I paint
Though I wander off in my own world.
I'm so lucky you've made no complaints
You always admire my artistic swirls.
As we watch the paint dry
Your arms are around me
As you recount all the reasons why
We'll always be. :)
(*yay! one happy, though fictional, poem >_<)

back to the depressing poems....
I thought my heart fell off the edge of the world
When I thought that was you standing there.
All of a sudden those memories aren't so forgotten.
Memories of a time when you and I actually cared.
It's been a while since I really thought of your face.
I thought those memories had faded away.
I should've known first heartbreaks will haunt me
But since I thought I saw you, it's much worse today.
I wish I had fallen for someone else.
Then it wouldn't be you breaking my heart.
We could've lived without knowing each other.
You knew you got me right from the start.
My heart was shattered into billions of pieces,
Broken many times thanks to you.
The piece I have left is infinitely small.
I don't know what I'd do if you broke that too.

Someone Out There....
Once in a while someone out there decides
That I've been happy for too long.
And then that same someone out there decides
I should be reminded of what's long gone.
Some unseen force makes me believe
That I need to revisit the past
For the purpose of making my heart believe
That the cuts and burns were made to last.
Sometimes a small voice tries to warn me
That I don't need to ever look back
But the overwhelming curiosity controls me
And again my heart crashes off the track.
Once in a while I wish someone out there
Would realize I've never really been happy.
For that someone to extract what's not really there,
I wonder if I deserve this cruelty.
Am I destined to remain in an endless cycle
Of melancholy, unhappiness, and despair?
I only have so much hope left in me
And when all that's gone my soul will be bare.
The tragic fate I walked into
Unknowingly and willingly
Now only serves to take me through
Varying degrees of melancholy.

ok last poem...this one I wrote today
The natural accident that befell me today
As our paths were destined to cross
Caused all intelligible words to slip away
As you caught my falling heart.
My unspoken words you already knew
And your smile lifted me up off my feet.
I grinned when I realized that you too
Were blushing as you tried to speak.
When all else is silent around here
I hear the melody you send through your eyes.
In my heart you're instantly near
Even from opposite corners of the sky.
As long as our eyes can meet
The songs we sing will make us smile.
Without the other, neither is complete.
Love is the only accident worthwhile.

sooo.....that was alot of poetry!! more than I thought I'd written.....but there ya go, you don't have to read them all obviously haha i'd appreciate comments though :) ~ciao :D